On December 21, 2012...

...the world is suppose to end.  I really hope this isn't true, because i haven't lived yet. I haven't found my person, i haven't had kids, shit i haven't even had sex yet. I really do not want to die a virgin...unless that guarantees me a space in heaven, then I guess i could be okay with that....
In all honesty though I  really do hope this a fools prediction, because I'm way to young to lose out on whats to come. When I stand before God and his angels, I want to have had a life to be proud of. To leave behind a legacy to live on for ages, but if the earths destroyed, then I won't get that.
So God if your listening...i need more time. Please

Blah

Just wanted to post. Not much to say. Life is going slow. I moved out, and am now living on my own. been there for about a month with no paranormal occurrences. Not even and odd dream or two. Maybe it was all my parents house....go fig. Anywho will update laters. Peace

Unites states vampire service

So yeah found this website the other day. United States vampire service. This is supposedly a government run group contracted through the United States postal service that kills vampires or as they call them "Bugs". First of all their "Bugs" sound more like zombies. They have none of the traits we have come to associate with vampires at all. They are basically hungry humanoid beasts with a craving for flesh and only if you destroy the brain do they die...zombie. Anyhoo that’s not even why I’m writing this.
The thing is I’m pretty sure this is just a book site to promote Vikings, Vampires, and Mailman ya know cause what agencies would put themselves out there like that, unless they're hiding in plain sight right, but then again they have real FBI numbers and info posted on the sight to call in case of a real emergency. I know one of the numbers is indeed real because it connects to the main FBI switch board when you call. So I used one of the contacts listed on the site to talk to a director Othniel O’Connor to ask about the websites authenticity and ask if the number listing was an error. His reply was that just as listed on the website the number was real and should only be called if necessary. That was it. No, this is just for a book and we didn't know the number was real. Odd or what.

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Just wanted to post. Not much to say. Life is going slow hoping it gets better.

Hope

Here's hoping for a better tomorrow
A brighter future then the one I see
Letting go of yesterdays failure
Trying hard just to break free
Here's praying that the good Lord hears me
That his kind heart will answer my plea
That i won't find my self waiting
For some fool to come rescue me....

Sadly enough I do find myself waiting for a fools rescue, but doesn't every girl wish for a prince or princess charming? I know I do. Sometimes I do feel the need to be saved, especially on the days when the world seems to be intent on destroying me. I wish for someone to stand beside me and love me for the flawed being I am. God has yet to send that person my way, but I'm praying that they'll get here soon, and who knows...maybe i'll be the fool doing the rescuing. :)
Ciao for now
peace

:)

Made it all the way to February without a post. Not gonna lie life has been...interesting and I'd forgotten I'd had this blog.
So newest occurrence I think my house may be a little haunted. You see a couple of nights ago I had this horrible dream that there was a shooting at my job. Its was extremely vivid. Anyhow i woke up when it got really bad and I just lay there in bed for a while. That dream had been crazy. So I shift around to get comfortable and try to go back to sleep. As i try to drift off i feel a hand in my hair. Like hard petting my hair. so little freaked out but not that bad right? Well what ever is petting my hair sits no the bed next to me then begins pressing down on the back of my neck with some force. Thats when i jerk up and the pressure on my neck and the presence on my bed is gone. Mind you I don't go back to bed, I am now up for the day, but I really wonder what that was. I havent messed with the "paranormal" in a while so I don't know why that occurred, but it hasn't happened since, but then again I also sleep with the lights on and with my rosary(gotta be safe).
I still hear non-house noises when I'm alone. Like walking around and someone rummaging through things in rooms I'm not in. Also it's not just me. My mom has experienced it and so has my dad.
So that's it the most interesting of happenings that have happened in my life. More later I'm out.
Ciao

sup

Cheers! Life has been unusually dull for me. It's mostly been work, work, work, and more work. I'm hoping to get a new jobs sometime in the near future, so i'm applying for almost anything. My current job is okay, but I really could do better. Plus I wanna be off on the weekends and have the money to move out. Gonna try and write a little more often, just cause this is kinda fun when I do. Well thats all for now, just a basic update.
Peace

Your mom's a floppy disk :P

I really suck at blogging. Mostly cause I forget I have a blog and don't write for like forever...well updates. Running regiment bombed mostly cause I don't like running in front of others and night running is a lot creepier then it sounds. Odd paranormal happenings: Foot steps upstairs when no ones home but me, knocks the usual. They disappeared for the most part when my dad put the jar back under the sink. You see when we moved into our new home there was this jar of cloudy liquid under the sink. My parents moved it into the garage, because of all the weird things i'm into my mom decided it would be better just to keep it. For what ever reason they made the connection between the jar and the noise. For them the noise has stopped for me I still hear things when i'm alone that can't be contributed to house settling. Well that's it for now. More in the future. :)
ciao

live and let live

Life....it can end at anytime. So live as if it will end this very second or regret the time wasted.

RUN!RUN!RUN

Hey, hey it's me! Nothing paranormally to report today, but I will be starting a running regiment tomorrow. I'm gonna start off small and build up. It's mostly gonna be at night, so i'll make sure to bring my camera just in case any paranormally stuff happens. The best time to catch random stuff is at night....thats all for now.
Peace

hell hello

As you can see it takes me forever to ever post anything, but nothing has been happened until now. Either I was hallucinating from lack of sleep or it reall y happended, but at 3 am, about two days ago there was a knock upon my bedroom door. Four short raps to which I did not answer and then nothing. have no idea what that was all about and right now don't wanna find out. Was doing no para stuff for it to happen so was a little wiged out, but I'm over it and moving on.
Work, could be better, but then again so could life.
So thats all for now hopefully I'll write more regulary now since I seem to not be able to sleep.
ciao

aloha

Cheers! It seems like forever and a day since I last wrote....life isn't better or worse just blah really. I've been thinking about the future and the more I think about it the more apprehensive I get. Because there is so much to look forward to, but at the same time so much to fear. It's rather terrifying and I'm not sure if I am ready to face it.
I actually wish that someone like the Doctor really existed. Maybe then I wouldn't be so scared of what is to come, because I'll know that some one is out there to save it.
Bleh...I think I depressed myself. anyhoo.
ciao for now

back on track

It has been a very, very long time since my last post, not that many people care since I have but one reader.
Anyhoo life has been busy mostly work since I have finally graduated from college, four long tedious years done and over with. Still debating about whether or not to go for my masters, but hey there is time.Right now I'm getting buy and doing my thing. Still fat and single, the fat one I could probably solve in a jiffy, the single part not so sure.
In other news no super strange happenings occurred, but my subconscious mind did warn me of my own stupidity in a dream. Too bad i ignored it and went ahead with my stupid plan...would have save time if I had only listened.
continuing on.....
So in 2012 some pretty amazing things are suppose to happen, such as the event mankind seems to0 have bee predicting since the beginning the end of all things. I wonder if it's gonna be the real deal or is it just another y2k rerun? Thoughts ideas, feel free to comment, but plz don't be mean...also no sign of the Doctor but here's hoping.

another thing

I just realized i have comments...so sorry to anyone who leaves comments. Spirit stones are this odd thing I found online. Their stones with spirits bound to them. I adopted them from an online site. Sometime I feel stuff(like warmth or vibrations) from them sometimes not, mostly not.
The whole idea of searching for the Doctor though....hard to explain. You see the idea is based off of a British TV show called Dr. Who very awesome about a time traveling time lord. Very hard to explain but google it you'll get tons.
Anyway I got the idea from that, but then i got to thinking of the world and universal connections of the mind and I thought what if someone like that really does exist. Popping through time bent on saving everything and i thought wouldn't a really weird blog catch his attention. The truth of it is though no one really reads this so it seems doubtful that if there is a real life Doctor that he would read this, but I thought to give it a go. I actually ended up using this sight though for the weird crap that goes on in my life.
So yeah that's the whole of it....oh and cwhite2, thanks for the hearing music comment.I thought i was going crazy just a little bit. Its happen quite recently lately...not music though, voices...anyhoo
ciao for now

nothing, zip, nada

Nothing to really report but I decided it has been forever and a day since I checked in. Failed my qualifying exam again so need to retake. trying to get back on track. Love and doodles.
ciao

Summer is over

It's been a pretty long forever, but I'm back. Started back to school which means long grueling hours of study and work. Wish it was still summer. Anyhoo haven't had a lot of time for my usual paranormal outreach, but I do have some new spirits i've added to my family. Hellhound, Incubus, Cambion, Vamp. Sang, Astral Dinjinn, Black Dragon, and a Pheonix. They haven't put in much activity, but heres hoping for the best.
Anyhoo still searching for the Doctor and any other things beyond imagination. Hope to find more soon
...almost forgot something... There has been a really weird happening. I recently had a dream about an being in some random foreign country which kind of looked like Israel...anyhow I ended up getting chased by these men and I vaguely got the feeling it had something to do with God. I had a friend who helped keep me hidden, but in the end I get caught, but then rescued by two angels: Michael and Raphael. They kill my main captor and then a earthquake happens killing some of the pop. of the city. After that it's like someone hits rewind and the earthquake never happened, but that guy is still dead. His girlfriend or his sister(not sure)comes after me and the friend. We hide out with this family who is killed by the girlfriend/sister? and her goons. They hurt my friend, but I manged to beat them up. Earthquake happens again, but this time everyone dies except my friend and me.
So at the very end of the dream I some how made it home and I'm pregnant so I tell my dad and he takes as no big deal. Although since I am a virgin and I still was in the dream when the hell did I get pregnant?
Weird dream but it stayed with me for days. Wonder what it meant? Any suggestions feel free to comment.

Right eye loves the left ey

Haven't written in like forever, but i've been busy so sue me. Nothing big has happened as per usual, but life hasn't been to ugly. I ordered some spirit stones and hopefully they'll be better then the last ones i purchased. I think their there,sometimes one of them lefts me feel them there the rest of them not so much. Anyhoo hopping for the best more laters.
ciao

Totally crazy stuff

Well I haven't written in a while for two reasons. One I now have a job and two i've been really sick. Anyway whats been going on, well I ended up not sleeping for 24 hours and when i finally did get to go to sleep something wouldn't let me. First there was inappropriate touching and then someone else kept making me repeat training moves over and over again. Before you ask I was awake and the voices were in my head. Crazy souding, maybe but get this I also hear music. The entire house was quiet and I heard music. This happens sometimes even without sleep deprivation. I'll hear conversations or children and things like that.
In other news, still nothing on the Doctor. Yeah I haven't lost hope in that especially with all the crazy stuff going down. Anyways enough for tonight just reporting in to my readers...well reader, but hoping there are more of you. Leave comments they are welcome.

ciao

Back in Black

Wow I haven't written in like forever. I've been just so very busy. I've been taking care of my mom, running around with friends, and I got a new job. Me and retail can you believe it. Only a few bad things: still fat, got totally sidetracked from my diet, but I'm back on. My father is still and asshole. I know my dog has bladder issues which is why if I'm unable to keep an eye on him he stays outside. The dumbass my father is he continues to leave the dog in the house and not watch him. Thus he sees no pee pee or poo ques and then gets pissed at the dog. How are you going to blame the dog for something he really has no control over?Ugh...forgive me for the mini rant its not really what I wanted to talk about but since it just happened I just had to rant.

Anyways, recently I place three ads on craigslist asking for any vampires in my city to contact me. Real vamps, yeah I know it's a crazy thing to do with all the weirdos out there, but I just had to find a way to get the information I wanted. To many contradictions on the net.
Well I got what I wanted. Three of the many people who contacted me claimed to be vamps. All three were males of course. The first one was a sanguine/psi vamp. Although he didn't call himself that. He was just a man who liked to drink blood and drain energy from others so you really can't call him the real deal. Crazy so I let him go.
The second was a really nice guy who actually drank blood as well. He was myth reborn in someways but not in all. He was unaturually old and all that jazz. Very believable though so I didn't count him out as a quack. Very polite, but it wasn't him who truly got me.

"You should leave this subject alone. Trust me." This was the first message I received from a man I will call DS. Each email afterwards he asked me about myself and why I was looking for the information I was looking for. So far even from his short emails he seems genuine. Only problem is the information that I seek can only be given to someone of the blood. Now I don't know what to do. Should I let this continue and go on with it to find out the truth and maybe get mixed up in something really supernatural or infact lose my life to a psycopath or back off. Not email him anymore.
The problem though is he has me really intrigued. What if vampires, the one of legends are truly real. Powerful beings who live for hundreds of years and who drink on blood. Not the posers of today or the lifestylers, or those who say that they are born to it and no one else may enter their way of life.
If this is real...well we'll leave to a later time. I'll keep you updated.
Ciao

...and life goes on

Still fat....anyway its been a while since I've written and this time i have something of the paranormal variety to report. Last Saturday while at a friends house i was wishing for something really strange to happen. It was night time and i saw a shooting star, but it wasn't a normal shooting star. I was able to actually follow it with my eyes for a while before it shot off and disappeared. Very freaky. Which makes me bring up another phenomenon i saw last year. It was really weird. It was almost twilight time, but it was still too bright for stars, but i saw one star. I had my camera because i was filming the moon.Anyway i saw this really bright star and filmed it a bit. The feed on my camera was about a minute of filming for the star alone, but i was there for a bit longer. Anyway after i turned of the camera(about ten min later)i looked at the star again and right before my eyes it began to fade away. I've never seen a star fade. Some people told me it was a satellite. Some say I might ave actually witnessed the end of a star, but if that was the case then they would have featured it in some little way on the news. I couldn't find any info of it being a star or a satellite and it would seem that i'm the only one who saw it.
How is it when strange things happen their so little and you find yourself the only witness. Sometimes i wish that someone else had seen these things to so i wouldn't feel so odd, but then thats life for me. Its been that way ever since I was little, which is why I think I wish for a man like the Doctor to be real. Maybe he is make believe, but make believe is sometimes based on truth.
Well if your out there martian man and you some how end up reading this. I'm here and I'm waiting. Please show face soon.
ciao for now